Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. Today I want to think about all the babies born as angels and send my love to all the parents and siblings who have suffered and endured the most terrible heartbreak and those who had the joy of their children for only a short time.

Today I count my lucky stars that I have two healthy boys.

Today I will think of the members of our family and friends who have been through the pain and torture of miscarriage, devastating 20 week scans and stillbirth. A horror that too many people experience through absolutely no fault of their own. I can't understand why some people have healthy babies and some do not. I can't understand that it sometimes feels like there are people who have babies who didn't even want them, who don't care for them, who neglect them and worse, when my friends and family didn't get to experience the joy of welcoming their newborn.

I will light a candle at 7pm today, for all the angel babies and hope that raising awareness of this painful subject will help support those who have lost.

The UK organisation can be found here.

There is also a great support organisation, Saying Goodbye who run free remembrance services nationwide, an opportunity for grieving parents to come together.

I love mixing old and new. Charity shop and car boot sale bargains with more modern fresh pieces of furniture or decorations. Our kitchen for example is high gloss black (what were we thinking with years of sticky fingers) with walnut wood but with big distressed window frame style photo frames and a scuffed, worn wood table.

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I'd love the house to look more like a show house and less like a play room but I know it has a homely feel. It has good soul when you come in and whilst there is a theme, be it colour or textures in each room, but it is not overly matchy.

The dining room is a narrow little room that used to be my husband's office until he converted the back of the garage. We have been pouring some love into it recently, a painted round table I found on eBay, a beautiful carved painted dresser from my friend's furniture shop and we just have to flog our leather dining chairs so we can replace them with the eames eiffel chairs my husband has lusted after for years.

I have had my eye on these secondhand wall shelves for ages but would need to re paint them in this grey from Annie Sloan. We have some beautiful glasses which have been hidden away and I want a way to display them high out of reach of those sticky little clumsy fingers.

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I also have 2 of my Grandparents decanters. I adore them even though they are only brought out for Christmas cocktails! When I popped into my favourite charity shop last week I saw a whole selection! There were 9 to choose from, I was in heaven! All priced between £3 and £4 I picked up 4! I love the different styles and the reflection of the sunlight on them lighting up the spirits inside.

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They look beautiful displayed together and would look even better on those painted shelves!

I couldn't believe my eyes when I spotted a set of 4 champagne saucers identical to the set of 8 I had bought in there a year ago! £1.50 the lot! I now have enough to make vintage cocktails for Christmas and I love the delicate gold pattern. I also feel less anxious using them than my Granny's precious paper thin saucers.

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Cheers!